I think this sums up my entire day. Feeling better coldwise, too!
Ra Ra Rasputin by Boney M

There lived a certain man in Russia long ago
He was big and strong, in his eyes a flaming glow
Most people looked at him with terror and with fear
But to Moscow chicks he was such a lovely dear
He could preach the bible like a preacher
Full of ecstacy and fire
But he also was the kind of teacher
Women would desire

RA RA RASPUTIN
Lover of the Russian queen
There was a cat that really was gone
RA RA RASPUTIN
Russia's greatest love machine
It was a shame how he carried on

He ruled the Russian land and never mind the czar
But the kasachok he danced really wunderbar
In all affairs of state he was the man to please
But he was real great when he had a girl to squeeze
For the queen he was no wheeler dealer
Though she'd heard the things he'd done
She believed he was a holy healer
Who would heal her son

(Spoken:)
But when his drinking and lusting and his hunger
for power became known to more and more people,
the demands to do something about this outrageous
man became louder and louder.

"This man's just got to go!" declared his enemies
But the ladies begged "Don't you try to do it, please"
No doubt this Rasputin had lots of hidden charms
Though he was a brute they just fell into his arms
Then one night some men of higher standing
Set a trap, they're not to blame
"Come to visit us" they kept demanding
And he really came

RA RA RASPUTIN
Lover of the Russian queen
They put some poison into his wine
RA RA RASPUTIN
Russia's greatest love machine
He drank it all and he said "I feel fine"

RA RA RASPUTIN
Lover of the Russian queen
They didn't quit, they wanted his head
RA RA RASPUTIN
Russia's greatest love machine
And so they shot him till he was dead

(Spoken:) Oh, those Russians...

I talked to Thai tonight! I haven't talked to him directly since summer! I feel a lot better even though my body says I should be dragging myself around. I called him to let him have my win98 cd key, and then we started talking for a long time.

I skipped chem lecture today. I was in calc (my class before it) and started feeling really sh*tty. When I got outside it was raining and cold. That pretty much settled it-- I walked home. I was exhausted when I got back to my dorm, so I took the elevators instead of the stairs. I did my laundry so I wouldn't feel like a complete waste-- of course I must have been out of it b/c I didn't check my pockets. One of the few times I don't check my pockets and I leave chapstick in there. It's all over a pair of jeans and a couple shirts. Those shirts have had lipstick in them too. I think they'll survive. This stuff is only lightly pink colored. I spent the majority of the time until I ate dinner sleeping. I got up and read and talked on IM's for a little while somewhere in there too.

Ok, I'm starting to feel out of it again, and I'm sure Kea's had enough of me banging around the dorm (I've made a lot of noise while in here tonight) so I'm going to sleep. Night all.

This weekend actually wasn't so bad.

I got Sean's screennames for aim and Y!, and so I talked to him a lot Saturday. I also talked to Garret and Zach and Kurt-- people I haven't talked to in a long time since I'm never on aim anymore. My y! name is effika if you want to add me and see what's up. I tend to be on late at night, 12-1am central time weekdays and 2am-4am weekends, and random times in between.

I spent most of Saturday and Sunday in bed reading. I felt like sh*t so I wasn't really concerned about not seeing Ryan. I read The Voodoo Queen, a book we're supposed to start in Vampires and Voodoo. It's about Marie Laveau and her times in New Orleans. It's an OK book, but certainly good enough to pass the time with this weekend. It wasn't very long so I finished it. Ryan called me about 11pm Saturday to see if I wanted to come eat with him and his younger brother. So I came over and we went to the Cate Center with them and Charles. I ate Ryan's crust from his pizza since I'd already eaten and just wanted a snack. After that we went back to Ryan's dorm and had fun with GTA Vice City. It's a pretty nice little game.

Sunday Ryan woke me up about 11.30am asking if I wanted to come to lunch with him and his family. My throat had turned raw overnight and I hadn't showered or anything. I declined as politely as I could, then e-mailed him about how sorry I was I had to refuse their offer of a friendly lunch. I figured it was best if I didn't see them since it appeared by all acounts I was getting sick, and I didn't want to spread it to them. I went back to sleep for a while before getting up and showering (steam and warm water feel so good on my throat), then spent the day in bed reading. Ryan called me that evening, and since I'd been feeling better I got dressed and went over. Paul had returned when I got there! I was very happy to see him again. The three of us went to dinner shortly thereafter. I started to not feel so good about 10.30, so Ryan took me home and we talked and made some amends and I got to cuddle up in his lap for about an hour.

I'm now wasting away some time at the comp, as I don't feel tired just yet and my roommate's asleep so I can't read in bed. I've borrowed Ryan's copy of Ringworld to read. I feel so lost without a book to read. I'm glad I have one again.

I am beginning to really like this grey, but I'm thinking a new colorscheme will begin to surface soon. I thought about a redesign... I think new colors will do for now. A redesign will probably come along in a few months, I expect.

I don't feel well so this won't be a very good entry. If you want happy coherent thoughts read elsewhere. :-P

Had an alright time yesterday; I talked to that guy in chemistry for a while after class. His name is Sean. He seems pretty cool.

Spent the evening with Ryan... ended up feeling used and trapped and unhappy by the end of it. We didn't argue or anything, or do much of anything at all. It was fun mostly except for near the end of the night. I can't explain it. Something just stopped working and it wasn't a good time.

Ryan's family is here for Saturday and Sunday. So I am stuck in my dorm. I feel like I'm not supposed to be with him when he tells me things like "My family's coming into town so you shouldn't come over here." His family likes me, a lot. It doesn't make me feel good to know that he doesn't want me to drop in and say "hi," even. Ryan doesn't know it but I've been unhappy with this relationship a lot lately. That kind of behavior doesn't help it.

Paul is gone for the weekend. So is Charles, afaik. My throat hurts so I don't feel like giving Sean a call to see what he's up to. I hope this isn't strep throat, as the next time I could conceivably see a doctor is next Friday. Sure, there's Goddard health center here for us students, but from all acounts they try as hard as they can not to take health insurance. I don't want to pay 75+ dollars to see somebody to say "Yep, that's strep. Go get penicillin." If it's still hurting by next Wednesday I'll call my parents to get them to get me an appointment on Friday. I'll just skip Calc and Chem if I need to and go home instead. Kea's going out of town that weekend, so it would be a good time for Ryan and I to spend some time, but a.) he absolutely loathes spending time in my dorm and b.) he's not really a good boyfriend right now. So I'll go home if I need to.

The rain is back.

WHY?

Ack. :-P

Tired and have a sociology test tomorrow that I should be studying for but haven't been for the past hour and a half. I tried to study in Ryan and Paul's dorm b/c I kept wanting to play Maxis Sim*'s here. There dorm was so warm and my material so boring that I kept falling asleep... Ryan was playing Morrowind, and he kept checking on me to make sure I wasn't asleep. If I was he would gently wake me up and remind me I should be studying. It was really nice of him to do that.

I also need to look over chem stuff for the lab tomorrow (we have a test). Suppose I'll do that between Sociology and lunch tomorrow.

Ok... I should either sleep or study, so I think I'll go sleep. :-)