Drug addiction
I am not sure if I have a drug addiction problem. I mean I have done some drugs in the past, however, lately I am feeling a little out of control about the whole thing. I am just starting to notice that I am taking more and more prescription drugs and they are readily available here at school. I think they are really very available around the globe. I mean especially pain pills, if you think about it, it makes sense. There is absolutely no test for how much pain a person is in. If I head over to the doctor and tell him that I was helping a friend move last night when I felt something pop in my back, and now I have this horrible pain, the doctor has no test for that. There is no quantitative measure of pain, so in that case, if he takes my word for it, then I may be able to get some pain pills and off I go again.
The problem lately is my mood, when I am on the pills, I find that I fell pretty even, but when I am off them, I find I am very short tempered and angry. I don't think that I am at a point yet where I need to go to drug rehab or anything. I think that if I just cut back I will be fine.
I have a friend who has been to drug rehabilitation center, and she found it a total drag. She said detox was the worst and that they wouldn't give her anything to help her with it. Well, with the way I have been feeling lately, it will be near impossible for me to hold my tongue if they were just leaving me there suffering. And she was in rehab for a whole month, and a month later she was back using again. She said that the counseling was good and so was the food, but she said it was really hard work. The place she was at, they had to do lots of work, and they had to be up at 5 am. She also left something in her pocket when it went into the laundry, and she had to scrub the bathroom floor with a toothbrush.
Anyway, I am not quite ready to subject myself to drug rehab, although I know I probably will have to at some point in the future. I just don't want to have to wait for my friends and family to do an intervention. I think that's just embarrassing.
Posted on Saturday, May 03, 2008 @ 9:18 PM by Edward
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